What I ate today

Woke up ate one yogurt 70 calories. 2 cups of coffee 120 calories , boost 240 calories,healthy choice smoke chicken panini 310 calories. 16 slices of peppers 70 calories,one fruit cup 60 calories, two vitamin waters 120 calories,another boost 240 calories,one cup of rice 220 calories,one piece of fish 220 calories, one cup of veggies 50 calories, one fruit cup 60. calories,and another vitamin drink 60 calories.=1,840

Today's update

Well, Lots been going on. I'm seeing a dietitian and a therapist trying to get it together. Here's what is going on, my dad went to prison. I thought I would get peace...right ? Wrong ! ! I'm having nightmares; waking up in the middle of the night wanting to throw up...sick to my stomach...feeling very gross. I need to work on this so badly. Here's a look at my nightmares....it's dark, I'm about seven years old and I'm at this place were I can't see. I'm running then I wake up and I'm walking in the house. I then refuse to go back to sleep - scared to death. It's usually 2:00 clock. I never thought I could hurt like this but, this must have hurt really bad when I was little. This is for that little girl I was - I'm so sorry I didn't save you.

my recovery

I can definitely say this is the beginning of the end for " ED ". I have the deep down wanting to stop this and have a normal life. The sessions I'm in are helping me with everyday situations to include food selection, handling triggers and deaking with everyday stressers that would normally have me freaking out. The upcoming sessions will be with nutritionists and a new meal plan. I'm glad on that part because my husband is overweight and is wanting a new direction as far as foods and new meal plans go. I am eager and anxious and really don't want anything to get in my way now.JoDee